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I think of you often. I wonder how you’ve been since we’ve gone our separate ways. I wonder how your family is doing and how much all the lil ones have grown. I don’t fixate on any specific memories but they still come to me all the same. I could be at a grocery store and I pass by something you used to like. Or I might be on my way to meet with friends and a song plays and I reminisce on how it felt like to be next to you. I do miss you but I think our season of life has come and gone and I’m being forced to move on. It isn’t just one person or one situation that has made it impossible to maintain a relationship with each other, we just live in two very different worlds. I don’t fit in your life anymore as much as you’ve tried to disprove that, it’s true. I don’t fit in like I used to and I’m not welcome in it. I am not needed or wanted as I once was and I’ve come to terms with that. I mourning this loss just as much as you are. I don’t think the love I have for you will ever go away and I find peace in knowing that. As much as I feel that your actions or lack thereof have stated otherwise, I still know you love me and always will.

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