The hardest thing I ever had to write: A Eulogy for my Best Friend.

On August 28th 2007, the world lost an amazing soul, and heaven gained a new angel. Below is the eulogy I wrote to honor my late best friend, Michelle Dymalski.In the days that followed her death, I was privileged enough to share these words at her funeral service.  I can still feel the pain I […]

This August marks 10 years

10 years without her beautiful smile, her infectious laughter and unforgettable hugs. The absence of her is still cripplingly painful and ever present for me. Like learning to live without a limb, I’m always aware of my loss and residual pain. I’ve learned to cope and accept her death but allowing myself to let go […]

Even death couldn’t separate us

Today our brother would’ve turned 31. We can only imagine how different life would’ve been growing up with him around. Heaven couldn’t wait for him and even in death, the chain will never be broken. Gabriel, you will always live on vicariously through us. I love you. XoXo

Dymalski’s Death Anniversary

Another year without her. Life just isn’t fair. People who have never known loss don’t understand that death is not something you get over, death is something you learn to accept. The pain has never once lessened, I just have had to overcompensate and become stronger to be able tho cope with it. It’s been […]

Dandelions, Sunflowers and Daisies

I love how beautiful flowers look but I can’t stand the way they smell. Their fragrance makes me nauseous and takes me back to moments I wish I could erase from my memory. As much as I love receiving them, I despise them just the same. Every single time I’ve lost a piece of my […]

Well wishes

I think of you often. I wonder how you’ve been since we’ve gone our separate ways. I wonder how your family is doing and how much all the lil ones have grown. I don’t fixate on any specific memories but they still come to me all the same. I could be at a grocery store […]

“Lightning strikes…maybe once..maybe twice”

I’m a world of chaos, a moody mess, a restless heart with a gypsy soul. I’m a social chameleon, but not in the manipulative sense most people associate that term with. I was just born with this intuitive gift to see the emotional needs in others and an innate nature to want to meet those […]

Ramblings..

“Well, maybe I’m a crook for stealing your heart away Yeah, maybe I’m a crook for not caring for it Yeah, maybe I’m a bad, bad, bad, bad person Well, baby, I know..” Dear man in the moon, I can’t sleep tonight. Sometimes if I’m lucky, I can get some decent sleep here and there, […]

Clarity.

  It’s amazing how twisted my perception of you was versus who you actually were. For years I thought you were my source of inspiration and no matter what the future would bring, nothing would ever change that. In time I came to discover how wrong I was. I believed you had completely changed my […]