This August marks 10 years

10 years without her beautiful smile, her infectious laughter and unforgettable hugs. The absence of her is still cripplingly painful and ever present for me. Like learning to live without a limb, I’m always aware of my loss and residual pain. I’ve learned to cope and accept her death but allowing myself to let go is another everyday choice and process.

You don’t “get over” the loss of a loved one, you simply learn to exist in spite of it. I will forever mourn what was, what is and what could have been.

I love you, Dymalski.

I still miss you, best friend.

Published by vanessaariana

I am a free spirit with an open mind and an old soul. This online journal is an eclectic mix of all the things I am most passionate about. I cannot be defined by one label or boxed into one category and this site is a complete expression of that. It may not be everyone's cup of tea, but it's always true to who I am, vulnerable, raw and honest! Hope you enjoy!

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